I flew to Chicago in August to sit for my Advanced Cicerone tasting exam. I’d been dealing with health problems all year, and I wasn’t optimistic about my chances of passing, but in the days before the exam I felt a sense of calm acceptance take over. Throughout the summer, I had been using chocolate as a means of meditative self-care. I would sit up straight, close my eyes, put a piece of chocolate on my tongue, and focus on nothing but the physical sensation of tasting it, followed by the joy and delight of having a body that can interact with the world through flavor. One of the bars I found myself returning to for this was Self Love, an 80% bar made with reishi and chaga mushrooms as well as ashwaganda and maca root, which founder Sara Ratza says boost energy levels and our immune system. Both were needed, so I turned to it often. I took it with me to Chicago, and sitting in the room of my Airbnb the morning of the exam, I stared out the window at the soft sunlight and slipped a piece of the bar into my mouth. It’s a quiet bar, with a savory, earthy foundation highlighted by gently sweet stone fruit notes. I told myself that whatever happened on the exam, it was going to be okay, and tasting that chocolate as it slowly melted, I was able to believe it.
You can hear from Sara Ratza back in Episode 15.